[[sitting all alone in my head thinking]]

you think you know. you think you understand. i think you did this. you think you were there for me. you call yourself a "friend". i think your wrong. talking me into what i "wanted". ive lost three amazing people bc of that. lucky for me at least two of them were the only ones who were there for me when i was at my lowest. its like you enjoy seeing hurt. you enjoy drama but only if it has nothing to do with you [isnt that right]. thats what i thought. i cant even tell you if these feelings are real. i cant even tell you if i mean what im saying. but the only thing i can say is thanks.

and to this other person.

i just want to say sorry i did this again. its just i dont know what i want in life. even if i want this "life". i just wanted someone who would be there for/[[with]] me. and it had been three weeks. and i guess its my fault for listening to other people. telling me what i want. what i dont want. what i should do. so im to blame this time. but this will be the last time i make this mistake. the last time i listen to them. and push away from the one person who was actually there all along.  but what can i say. there is nothing. the only thing i can do is say sorry.

if this is what i wanted... then what am i thinking?

Currently Listening Here's to the Mourning By Unwritten Law she says see related

um so im leaving dont know when ill be back but yeah.

going to denton. be there a while.

i hate this.

but yeah

jsut in case you cared to know.

uhhhhhhhhhhh

heres some lyrics i think might explain my life i little more.

but what do i know?

Father I've sinned
over and over and over and over again
sorry my friends
I'm such a mess
I'm doing the best I can
She says "where ya goin? where ya been?"
She says "I don't want you hanging out with them"
She leaves like she's never coming back again on and on...
it goes on and on YEA

She says "I don't love you like I loved you before"
She says, she says "I don't love you anymore"

and mother I've tried over and over and over to open my eyes
look at my life
tell me when did I die
cause I'm not alive
flip through the script and tell me what it says
skip through the story tell me how it ends
she says that we're probably better off as friends
on and on and... yeeeaaaa

she says "I don't love you like I loved you before"
She says, she says.... YEEEAAAA
She says "I don't love you. I don't love you anymore."
She says, she says "I don't love you. I don't love you. I don't love you anymore."
she says she says she says "where ya going"
I know I know I know I know I know
she says she says she says "where ya going"
I know I know I know I know I know
she says she says she says "where ya going"
I know I know I know I know I know
she says she says she says "where ya going"
I know I know I know I know I know
WHAT I WANT

you... you called the police
you called them on me
and I want to go anywhere but home
I... I'm done listening to whats wrong with me
cause it goes on and on and on and on YEA

she says "I dont love you like I loved you before"
she says she says... YEEEAAA
she says "I dont love you. I don't love you anymore"
she says, she says "I dont love like I love you anymore."

what is there to say.

hmmmmmmmmmm

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